Posts tagged Life Sucks
No time for blog.
25 years ago
by Erin
Ugh I am so busy lately I have no time to do anything fun. During the day I’m in class, most of which is a complete joke (for example, we have been watching The Mission for the past 3 class sessions on my Anthropology class. Also, we are like 2 weeks behind because all the freshman in there are retarded at taking notes).
Also I have work 3 days a week, which I’m kind of worried about. The other day one of my bosses asked me to skip class to go on a kind of sales call with him? I made it very clear when I started that school is my number one priority and work is like 3rd or 4th down the line of my list of priorities. I got the feeling before but now I’m kind of positive that they are wanting me to take a bigger role in the company than I want. Like more of a sales role. Anyone who knows me knows I hate dealing with people, but that’s what they’re kind of pushing me into. I’m happy working behind the scenes and I know that this probably won’t pay me a lot, but that’s what I’m happy with. I don’t like all that salesy stuff and that is not I understood my role to be when I took the job. *sigh* But they’re REALLY good to me so I hate to be difficult. I like to help out whenever I can. But I am just not comfortable with sales-y type things.
And if I’m not working or schooling, I’m studying. Right now I need to be writing an essay and finishing reading about 40 different chapters of different books. I still have not read one item for my British lit up to 1760 class, it is so horribly boring. But this weekend I’m really going to make an effort to. One problem is that at night I am so tired by the time 7 rolls around because I’ve been up and going going going for the past 12 hours, all I want to do is settle down and watch some Law & Order for a while. Then American Idol. Then go home and sleep.
This week I’ll be praying for fortitude to complete my assignments and patience with my classes. :angel:
Oops!
05 years ago
by Erin
So after 3 days and no comments, I decided to do some investingating… haha I forgot to upload the comments page for this template! :tongue: silly me.
Lately I’ve been having some health problems. Around last November I started having tons of nausea, diarrhea, etc. In the past 3 months I’ve spent at least one night vomiting for hours. The next day I am usually fine, but pretty much i feel horrible all the time. I kept making up excuses for it, like “Oh I’m really stressed out, maybe it’s just affecting me, things will calm down next week,” “Oh my period always screws everything up,” etc. I’ve been on Orthotricyclen-lo for almost a year now. My mom suggested it might be from taking birth control, but it seems weird that these symptoms would start up after 6 months of use. By some coincidence each of these vomiting episodes happened after eating foods with tomatoes in it. I’ve steered clear of tomatoes and so far I haven’t thrown up. I don’t want to have to go through the rest of my life not eating anything tomato-based though. 
I’m kind of hoping that I’ll get vomity again just so I can rule out tomatoes as being the cause for it hehe. :angel:
Today I went to my family doctor. He doesn’t think it has to do with Orthotricyclen because I had a similar problem a year ago. He took some blood and a urine samples to do some tests. He was very concerned that this has been going on for like four months, he said that it’s not normal and alarming. :shock: he thinks it may be colitis. I’m not sure though, I’m not experiencing some of the symptoms, but hey he’s a doctor and I’m not. :neutral: Plus the tests don’t lie. He is going to put me on some medication next week and probably have me go see a GI specialist and have…
… a colonoscopy. When he said that I seriously started freaking out! I do NOT want to have a colonoscopy!! My dad has to have one every year (he’s older than dirt) and he gets physically ill from the laxative they make you take the night before to “cleanse the system out.” Plus, a colonoscopy sounds pretty serious to me… when I hear that I think “colon cancer” and there is a history of colon cancer in my family. I know that most likely there isn’t any cancer, but that doesn’t really make me feel better. :depressed:
I do feel better that I’ve actually seen a doctor about this and hopefully now I can start feeling better… but I’m kind of scared. I’d rather not know than have something be seriously wrong with me. I guess that’s not true, but I don’t want to think about having to live with a serious condition for the rest of my life. I was upset enough when I thought I wouldn’t be able to eat tomatoes anymore…
Sometimes it’s not in the plans.
26 years ago
by Erin
Sunday night after I had gotten into my cute VS pajamas, Mike IMed me and said his parents were heading back up to the hospital after one of his aunts called, adding that he would be following them shortly. His aunt made it sound pretty urgent that everyone get there right away, Grandma Mary was doing very badly (her heartbeats per minute [BPM] could not get above about 45) and the doctors didn’t expect her to make it through the night. It wasn’t the first time they said this though. I offered to go with Mike for moral support and he took me up on the offer, so I got back into my jeans and drove out to meet him somewhere so we could drive up together.
Once we got to the hospital I found that Mike’s mother’s ENTIRE family was there. She has five sisters, and every one of them was there with their significant other, their kids, and their significant others. Everyone was looking very grave and crying, and one look at Grandma Mary let me know why. She had no strength at all and could barely nod her head. She was heavily sedated and we could tell by the glossy haze in her eyes. Mike couldn’t bring himself to talk to her and we spent the next two hours at her bedside, Mike staring at the heart monitor, willing the numbers to go up, and me standing next to him, feeling completely useless and invisible.
